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I hate everything inside my head
I hate the voices—I want them dead
I want to smash it all to pieces
This is how my anger releases
I hate my future I hate my past
The present isn’t going to last
Everything I do is wrong
Things I say don’t last for long
I’m dripping in these tragic flaws
None can see my reluctant pause
I need to run and scream and cry
I don’t want another lie
The clouds can see behind my eyes
But no one else, no one tries
I’m hurting so bad, much more this time
What is this feeling? Oh what is this crime?
I make up the words, but they go away
I never remember what I want to say
You’re spinning me, spinning me, around and around
With confusion and tension I fall to the ground
I am the rope in your tug of war
But please don’t leave me alone in the dust
To become a part of the decay and the rust
Tell me why I’m broken apart
Tell me why I lost my heart
Tell me I’m going to make it through
Tell me I’m never losing you